Technology may have gone so far that communication and decision making  is now within at the tip of our finger,  but we still  can not get away with papers, including pre-conceived ideas based on papers.  And just as not everything true is worth writing, not all that is written and perceived helpful will actually be useful.

    A lot of things were decided based on merits vouched by "papers"  and then in the end, decision turned out as  another lesson to learn from.  When are we going to learn?   In choosing between qualified candidates, selection should go beyond what the candidate is capable to do based on "papers" he can present.  Not everyone who has that paper can really do what is vouched  by that paper and not having that paper does not mean one can not do better.

     In an old song there was this line "time heals broken hearts".  Wish its true.   No matter how hard we try to bury a painful past, once it is touched, there really is something that still hurts.  Maybe this is  because while we want to bury the pain, we can not bury the joys associated with the pain.  And so the better way is just dance with the beat until broken heart "regenerates cells?".  Afterall, its not only strength and perseverance that  count  but the fun of coping as things come along.

     Of course coping itself is not also simple to a point that even a song can make us both cry and smile.  Speaking of an experience as weird as this, here is the lyrics of a song which makes me feel like crying but at same time happy each time I hear it .....

                                            This I Promise You

                          When the visions around you bring tears to your eyes

                          And all that surround you are secrets and lies

                          I'll be your strength, I'll give you hope

                          Keeping your faith when its gone

                          The one you should call was standing here all along ...

                          And I will take you in my arms

                          And hold you right where you belong

                          Till the day my life is through ... this I promise you.  This I promise you

                          I've loved you forever in lifetimes before

                          And I promise you never will you hurt anymore

                          I give you my word, I give you my heart

                          This is a battle we've won.   And with this vow,  forever has now begun

                          Just close your eyes each loving day know this feeling won't go away

                          Till the day my life is through.... this  I promise you.  This I promise you

                          Over and over I fall.  When I hear you call

                          Without you in my life baby I just would'nt be living at all

                          And I will take you in my arms and hold you right where you belong

                          Till the day my life is through.  This I promise you baby

                          Just close your eyes each loving day

                          Know this feeling won't go away

                          Every word I say is true.  This I promise you. 

                          Every word I say is true.  This I promise you. 

                          Ooh I promise you

     Just read an article about a beauty queen who talked about her failed marriage to an Italian businessman because of  a third party.  Whatever reason there may be, its never easy to decide getting out from marriage more so that divorce is not legal in the country.  I guess I shall now agree "love is a decision".   More than accepting the person for who he is and who he may become, love is a continuous decision making whether to go on, let go of any imperfection or give up and move on.

     Nothing is certain and life is a choice and because somehow a particular person brings with him something which at a particular moment we believe is what may  inspire us to be the  best we can be, we then decide he is the one.  And because everything change -- circumstances and people, love is often affected.  It's at times  like this when  decision becomes  crucial.

      Another higher position is now open for bidding.  There is a particular person who,  most of us wish will bid.  The thing is, she is hesitant.   And we understand her.  Career pathing,  more than a matter of a life's choice,  is answering to a certain call.  

      As we grow our responsibilities become more complicated.  And while we enjoy each complication's thrill, we are faced with the challenge to go for more or simply be at peace doing the best with what we already have.  Perhaps, this is because we know that it is lonely at the top.  No matter how happily one works for the benefit of the majority, there will always be people who will not even recognize his effort and will only find ways to pull him down. 

     Of course, none of us  wants to doubt our individual capabilities  but the truth is, happiness does not just come along with anything we  think  will make us  happy.  We can only say something made us happy when we already experienced it.  That is why, even if others think we can make a difference we sometimes find it difficult to decide because we  want to happily  respond to the call.